It feels good

It feels good to feel good. Why do we forget this? Or neglect it? Or choose to stay in an unhappy state, avoiding the things we know will help us to feel good?

There are a lot of really complicated answers for those questions. Some have to do with habit, some with depression, some with disease, fear, outside pressure. Who knows.

The truth is, though, that we can feel good if we choose to.

I forget that too often. Right now I remember.

So I am reminding you. Go do something that makes you feel good. Not because I said so, but because you deserve it. And because you really do have the power to choose.

Waiting

never wait

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Cycles and Seasons

Have you ever stopped to think about how much we are influenced by repeated cycles and events? For example, the holiday season. No one is truly immune to it, even when we avoid it. There is a greater sense of community, of connectedness, than at any other time of the year. There is more joy, more sharing, more giving. Also more eating, drinking, and arguing. It’s incredible, and the effects of repeated cycles often continue even when the original situation has drastically changed. About two months ago, I went through a pretty serious depression. I was moody, anxious, grumpy, and just downright sad. The thing was, I couldn’t figure out why. There were no discernible reasons for my mood. Work was going well, at least as well as it ever does. My finances are in good shape, my relationships are solid. So why was I so down?

Finally, it hit me. Exactly a year before, I was unemployed, very broke, feeling very insecure and apprehensive, and my relationships were undergoing some pretty major upheaval. So this year, despite the fact that everything in my life is better, I was still depressed. I didn’t even understand what might be causing it until it was almost over. The one-year anniversary of starting my new job passed, and like a miracle my mood lifted. I felt happier and stronger again. It was very strange.

More recently, it happened again. Spring is almost universally considered to be a time of renewal, as the land wakes up again, the sun stays around longer, and animals give birth to their young. For me, it has always been a little bit the same. Like waking up after a long sleep – which honestly is weird, because I love winter and often feel most awake during the cold months. Still, spring seems like the time to begin new endeavors, to shake off the cobwebs and get moving again. Which is exactly what I have slowly been doing since the turn of the season, both mentally and physically. Moving again. Making room for new thoughts and ideas, discarding ones that no longer serve. Boxing again, which I haven’t done in months. Thinking about travel, and road trips, and visiting places I’ve always wanted to go, even right here in my hometown. Waking up.

I’m excited to welcome spring, and to start moving again in my life. Moving forward, making changes. As much as part of me hates change, I know it is the only way to truly live. So here I am, changing a little bit every day.

What cycles do you repeat? And what are you going to change today?

Taking Care of Me

Taking care of myself has rarely been enough of a priority for me. I tend to focus on the needs of others, because often they seem to be easier to address. And because I sometimes have difficulty identifying my own needs. I’ve really gotten tired of waiting for other people to do the same for me. Took a very long time to understand that it doesn’t work that way.

In any case, I have often let myself be lower on the list of priorities. Lately, I’m making some changes. Instead of focusing on what I want or need, I’ve been focusing on what makes me feel good. I like feeling that I have accomplished things, so every time I do, I write it down. Sometimes by the end of the day, I have a pretty impressive list. I’m keeping track of little moments that make me feel loved and cared for, whether they come from me or from others. I’m taking better care of my body, because it feels good to do so. I’m cutting myself some slack. Not saying that I can get away with anything, but really truly accepting that any success is still success, that any progress still counts. This all adds up to me ending my day with a really satisfied, fulfilled feeling.

This taking care of me thing is awesome. I’m so glad I found my right way to do it.

Baby, It’s Cold Outside

Really, it is. Quite chilly. Also currently raining, which I’m loving. But for fun, enjoy this video. Great duet, cute music video. And it’s been stuck in my head all day, so now I am sharing it with you. 🙂

http://www.popsugar.com/entertainment/Idina-Menzel-Michael-Buble-Baby-Cold-Outside-Video-36125693

Catnip

Cats love catnip. It’s a well established fact. I was watching my cats roll around in theirs today, and I realized something. We all have our own personal catnip. Something that we thoroughly enjoy, that gives us the heady, free feeling of a high. For some, it might actually be a drug that does that. For others, a food, or a person. Maybe an experience.

My personal catnip? Storms. They never fail me. A good storm (or even a quick, not so impressive storm) makes me feel alive. Giddy, cheerful, awake, uplifted… electrified (yeah, I said it). The way the wind blows through the surrounding area makes me feel like it is blowing out the cobwebs in me, too. It’s a fresh, take on the world sort of feeling. I love it. (And at the moment, I hate living on the west coast. Today’s pathetic drizzle is the closest thing I’ve seen in months. I am jealous of the rest of you, even with your below freezing temperatures.)

So tell me, what’s your personal catnip? What wakes you up and makes you feel good?

Let it Snow!

Okay, I admit I’m a little weird about this, but I love snow. So much. When I wake up to a lovely snowy landscape, especially if it is still snowing, like it was this morning, I turn into a little kid. Not exaggerating. I giggle, and jump around, and squeal a little…and pretty quickly manage to get myself dressed so I can go outside. I no longer spend the whole day outside, but I savor every moment I do. Snow just plain makes me happy. I could list all sorts of reasons, like it’s beautiful, and cold, and white, and sparkly, and soft…or I could just go with it makes me happy. I’ve been smiling all day, and I am really glad about that. It’s quite nice to really have something to enjoy with my whole heart. Ended up really putting me in a great mood, so I also turned on the Christmas music and put up some of my decorations. Just the tree and the outside stuff left to do. And it doesn’t even seem like work, since I get a fresh burst of energy every time I look outside. Yay snow!

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